Our culture teaches us how to numb and distract ourselves but not how to listen to our pain and learn from our difficulties. Think what we learn about pain from television. We learn that pain is to be avoided at all costs and that there are a variety of pain relievers for every conceivable pain. I would like to see a commercial that says, "Your pain is a great teacher. Learn from it and be healed."
Oh, my, where to begin. First let me apologize for being gone so long. I know some of you may have been worried, but, the truth is, I thought you guys knew I'd be gone for awhile until I visited this morning and saw that I had pushed 'save' instead of 'publish' for a post that would explain my absence. I thought maybe since I had a repetition injury, resting would help.
I think all of you knew that I have been having problems with my shoulder and neck. Still do. Think it's going to be a permanent thing now. Hope not, but sure isn't going away. I went to PT once, but could not afford the $35 a week co-pay so I didn't go back. Instead I started classes in meditation and qigong which my union offers free to its retirees. I also do line dancing. Been off for a month now though since they are on vacation and my body really misses it. Pain has increased. I try to do the exercises at home, but something always gets in the way.
Of course, I couldn't rest it completely. I did manage to complete my aromatherapy and crystal healing courses and am now considered a practitioner. Now I am back with the New Order of Druids completing my Druid courses. Just have to keep myself busy.
On another note, I am sad to announce that we are looking for another place. I'd thought this apartment would be my last place to live and truly loved it, but, the Chinese are taking over the area, buying up all the homes, and building these ugly tall buildings which take away all the ambience of the neighborhood. About a month ago they purchased the two houses next to me and are in the process of tearing them down. The noise is outrageous. I can deal with that, but it's the permanent night in my house that's getting me down....and when the new building is built I fear it will only be worse. They are cutting me off from all the sun. Already lost my herb garden. These pictures should explain our situation and what we are going through.
This is the view from my bedroom window.
That tall building is new and this is what is going up next door to us. Talk about total darkness. My house will become like a dungeon.
From my kitchen window. Scaffolding takes up half our courtyard.
The window with the blue curtain is my bathroom window. The window blocked off is my bedroom. It's awful.
A picture I took of my bedroom in the MIDDLE of the day.
My electric bill is going up because I cannot even cook without the lights on. And what gets me, is no one lives in these buildings (there are 6 on my block alone). They build them and they sit empty. Not sure what is going on, but the community is having a "Save our Neighborhood" rally Sunday evening. Don't think it will help any because these rich Chinese businessmen have the city council in their pockets, but at least I won't be feeling so helpless.
Well, that's all this morning. Been de-cluttering for the move which looks like it will take some time. Just can't find affordable housing here in Brooklyn and 200,000 on waiting lists for senior housing. Something has to be done. Near tears here so I have to stop talking about it. Breaks my heart.
Have a good one...and I promise, I will be back.